i can't tell you how upset i am now. . .


i'm just super SAD and depressed.. .


thruout the whole bus trip. .i was just staring into space and stoning. .


how can such thing happen . .i've beginning to feel tat the world is such an unfair PLACE..


hmmm..recently there's this sudden upsurge of death of my loved ones. .

1st..it was kirsten's dad. . i was initially quite shocked to find out that kirst's dad passed away . .and it was only this year that i knew about it. . she kept it a long tym. . .and i only knew it from her sis.. .so i din't managed to attend his wake. .

i was quite upset with the fact that kirst.didn't tell me.. and in particular the whole cell such an impt thing. . .i mean YEPS..IT'S SO IMPT. . HOW COME YOU DIN'T BOTHER TO TELL US. . WHATEVER. .THE REASON IS. .WE ARE STILL YOUR SPIRITUAL FAMILY. .WE STILL LOVE YOU AND EVERYTHING. .WE CARE FER U..and most imptly. . i wanna at least bade farewell to your dad..

and if you have a chance to read this blogpost. .I JUST WANNA TELL YOU . .THAT THE CELL IS ALWAYS BE YOUR SIDE. . AND IF YOU HAVE ANY PERSONAL STUFFS OR PROBLEMS.. YOU CAN ALWAYS TURN TO US. . :)


2nd. .

HMM.. .yupp..the death note..struck my mom. .to tell ya the truth. . i was very very shocked. . that my mom just left lyke that. . i've never knew that she was going to leave so soon. . i was not prepared at all . GOd din't give any warning. . .it was only 1 week b4 she complained of stomach-cramps..and dizziness. . and of serious breathlessness..

she admitted to hospital. .ON..the family nite rehearsal dae. . i rmbred so clearly..cuz the last tym we had a proper conv.. .was when i asked her how to use the lipgloss that she bought fer me a few daes again. . she was teaching me how to make-up and i can still rmbr vividly. . the scene,..it's lyke a memory forever ethched in my mind. .

and the next dae. .she was admitted to hospital cuz she was feeeling very tired and unwell..

she did a ct scan and found out that her cancer had spread to the 4 th stage. .in the begininng, my siblings and I weren't much affected by the results.. we thought that she can survive the ordeal just like that. .but it seemed like now. .the lord was seriously going to take her back..

when i visited her in the hospital..it was racial harmony dae. . i see her lying on the hospital bed..looking so lifeless and pale. . she spoke with much difficulty. . saying that we've had to work hard and listen to the elders. .what i only rmbred was that the whole family cried and cried. .

it was the only tym that i cried loudly and in front of her. . i couldn't help it. .it was the 1st tym that i saw my mother looking so helpless and desperate.. .


and the next visits to the hospital..i just chatted with my mom..talked and talked..when she was too tired to talk..i just sit there looking at her. . and she just sat looking at us. . .touching our faces.s.probably trying to rmbr how we look lyke. . she LOOKED really sad. .and desperate. .everytym we visit her. . i 'll keep praying that the lord will not take her away. .


on the dae that passed away. .my bro..me.. my dad and aunty. .with my maid(aunite cita)..went to the hospital..

this tym..my mom's breathing was very heavy. .and we were very worried..cuz the situation didn't look very cheerful//and flame was coming out of her mouth more frequently than ever.

suddenly/.the bloody flame just gushing out and out. .we actually wanted to take our leave at 10.30..but we stayed on to help her clear out the mess..



it was just then..that her breathing stopped. . the machine stopped beeping for a moment. . and i panicked..literally. .


my aunty..looked very calm..and told us perhaps that she had already gone up with the lord.. i was momentarily shocked. .


how could this happen..after long hours of desperate prayer..why had this happen..i hadn't o much fer my mom at ALL..in fact the last daes iin earth..i had angered. her.. stressed her out,..cuz i myself was very stressed with schoolwork and choir perf. .and den i coudlnt' sleep at nite. . felt lyke i was gg crazy..keep complaining to her. . stressing her at nite..esp when in couldn't sleep . .

den i felt i din't do much to make her feel happier on earth,. .


for a moment . i felt so lost.. that my world had just collapsed. .



after a few daes..i tot a lot .and realised that perhaps.. that i should remain strong and to continue to press on in life.. esp in studies.. and do her proud..cuz that's wad mom wanted as her last wish..fer us to do well in studies and obtained outstanding results fer her..most imptly.she wanted me to continue to remain in IP..so that i won't have to transfer to o'level track.


YUPPP>.and that was why i studied really hard fer EOYS>.my mom is my main motivation..

and therefore i wann to work extra hard fer her..

yeps..my mom wil always live in my heart..she will..


:)


even tho..she obviously will not be able to read this POSt..

but i just wann her to neo that i really LOVE HER>
yeps..

i din't get a chance to say that..even during her last daes/

and i also want to HUG her. .


hmm.,.reminds me of cajing when she wanted to hug shin..except that she managed to HUG him..hais.


3rd..


(why do i seem to be posting obituries.??,hah)

chrislyn's cousin..


from wad i heard from x/lyn..he wasn't a christian when he passed away..and i coudl telel that chrislyn was really upset. . .i MEAN tym is running OUT.. .and that we have no tym left. .

our loved ones are leaving us. .the gospel has to be spread. . the word of God has to be spread. .so that the love of God can be spread to those who are desperate of light admist the darkness and disaster.s.

4)

aunna's dad..

actually nxt week is aunna's BD./. and the news of Aunna's dad passing away 2dae.. was a big shock to us.. it's lyke the devil attacking us..bcuz we were busy preparing aunna's bd party..and perf.. and it's lyke her dad's death came so untimely. .WHY..it's just so ironic.,.life it is..


sometimes..death is always a reminder to treasure our loved ones..and to rmbr to keep doing Gods' work..because it seems so much more impt and urgent...


:)

21st Oct
Isaiah 53 : “the suffering and glory of the servant”

This passage talks about the coming of the messiah—Jesus Christ. The lord says that he has “no beauty and majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.” “he has despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, familiar with suffering.” When jesus lived on earth as man, he was just an ordinary MAN that was always despised and rejected by all men because he claims to be the messiah- the son of God to save all people. “but he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.” The son of man had to suffer a long torturous death by lying on the cross, so that he can save us from all our sins and past hurts. BY his wounds on his hands and feet, we are set free and healed from all SINS and barriers that stop us from coming to the lord.

“We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the lord has laid iniquity of us all.” Every time we turn away from the lord, the lord tries very hard to grab your attention and to pull you to his side again. That is why when some people backslide away from the lord, there was always friends and family around that person to pray for that person and encourage that person to draw near back to the lord again. God desperately wants us to build an intimate and strong relationship with him so that we realign our hearts to his will and do things according to his plan great commission. However, when we are lost and distant away from the lord, we are like a group of blur sheep who have lost their way from the shepherd, we are lost in the mountains, and we desperately need the shepherd to guide us back to the FOLD. We once again come in front of the altar to cleanse our sins, so that we can come back to the lord again.


When I heard that Aunna’a dad had just passed away, I was very upset and rather shocked. It came too sudden—just like my mom’s death, except that was worse cuz I witness the death altogether. It was very saddening. I heard my heart break and kept asking the lord. . why..why. . why do there seem too be so many deaths. . from Kirsten’s dad. . .x-lyn’s cousin. .my mom..aunna’s dad. . it seems that the DEATH NOTE(haha..who watched deathnote.??)..is aimed at the Christians. I feel that the devil is trying to work in our lives. To pull us strongly away from the lord. I DON’T WANT TO BE PULLED AWAY. I WILL BE STRONG AND STAY CLOSE TO THE LORD. THE DEVIL CAN DO WHATEVER HE WANNS.. .BUT WE THE CHRISTIANS ARE GONNA STAY STRONG. . AND CONTINUE TO REMAIN STRONG IN OUR FAITH AND SPIRIT. J

19th Oct
Isaiah 50 “Israel’s sin and the servant’s obedience”

“Because of your sins you were sold; because of your transgressions your mother was sent away. When I came, why was there no one? When I called, why was there no one to answer?” sometimes, we pay a high price for all our sins. Our sins do have a great negative impact on our lives, whether you like it or not. Our sins are stained by guilt and blood, only Jesus’ blood can set us free from our sin-ridden life. In the past, sacrifices had to be made because they had to use “animal blood” to redeem their sins. BUT now, Jesus has already died on the cross to set us free from all our sins, and now we are saved by the blood of Jesus. We are sinners saved by grace, and we can draw nearer to the lord as our sins and already cleansed by Jesus- the son of God.

“When I came, why was there no one? When I called, why was there no one to answer?” When God called out to us, we ignore and DAO him. When he called us to do something, we turned his back against him and refused to listen to his orders. The lord is being ignored, despised and looked down upon. The people of the lord disobeyed him and insisted on going their own ways. When the lord needs us to accomplish great things for him, we walk away, refusing to do what the lord has called us to do.

“Let him who walks in the dark, which has no light, trust in the name of the lord and rely on his God.” let us turn away from all that is undesirable, and unpleasing to the lord, and turn to righteousness—the lord. Walk right with God and ensure that your spiritual life is HOLY and PURE unto the lord, that we are not to sin against the lord.

Normally, we like to choose the easier path to go to, to choose to bow down to sin. We think that by following our own desires and pleasures, no one can stop us. But, we know that it is not right and that the lord knows everything that we’re doing. He tried all ways to stop us from committing the sin, but we being the weak and powerless, we just had to succumb to temptation.

Finally, we come back to the lord to ask for forgiveness, we know that we’ve done wrong as we have do things that are not pleasing to the lord. It may be a small teeny weensy sin that you have committed, but a small sin is like a black dot in a big white cloth. The small black dot has dirtied and spoilt the big white cloth no matter how big the dot is. The white cloth is no longer PURELY white and it’s therefore considered a dirty and SPOILT cloth. This is the case with sin, whereby no matter who big or small your sins are, it’s still a sin. You can never change the fact that you have committed a sin! It’s already recorded in the book of JUSTICE. We just know that once we sinned against the lord, we’ve got to kneel in front of the lord to ask for forgiveness so that the blood of Jesus can once again cleansed our sins, and that we can be renewed with a new surge of grace and mercy once more.

we're got 4th!


4th placing for volleyball!!!


the platelets rawk.. we can clot blood!


no viruses can attack us. !


ahahhah..ive becoming veryy lame.. (or should i say corny. . .). .:)). .yupp. .2dae was an exciting DAY.. . .it was the inter-class volleyball comp.. .and we the platelets did veryy well l..:)yeahyeah


at 1st we were doing veryy welLL.. and ant PLUS we the 309 cheerleaders were cheering the crazy. . .we were screaming and yelling like MAD>. .the whole tennis court were filled with our screams . .(DON'T ASK ME WHY WE WERE PLAYING VOLELYBALL MATCH IN THE TENNOS COURT. . AND NO..THEY DIN'T USE THE TENNIS NET AS THE VOLLEYBALL NET. . I WAS KINDA HOPING THAT THEY COULD USE. IT..but they din't....*hopes were dashed*)..anw.. back to the loud cheering and screaming. . .it sort of did much help . .cuz we won !!!yeps..6 matched in a row. . it boosted the morale of the whole team. .even tho i had to agree that some of the classes were looking quite pissed and our opponents were quite intimidated by US>>>we so kowaii LO....

den i was verii happie and hyper. .. . cuz our class became verii united as a whole. . .and we were all so enthu the whole dae. . .we tried doing kallang wave... while cheering fer them.. .diao..///


BUT it did amused ms chang. . i saw her laughing like crazy..:)


and den we did the trigo cheer. . .cuz someone suggested that once 3/9 scored 3 goals... den we do the trigo cheer which goes like that . .


3/9 GO! 3/9 GO! 3/9 GO!

3/9 GO GO GO!

3/9 loves trigo..


it was ultra lame. . but you get my point rite. . it was still quite fun la..


AND DEN ANTHEA STARTED THIS WEIRD CHEER WHICH WAS TO DIAO THE OTHER GROUPS WHEN THEIR BALL GOES UNDER THE NET... .





it's to the tune to the little mermaid's under the sea


so it's just



under the net
under the net
it's too bad. it's too..under the net


and it was super funny. .cuz it was diao


anw.. to keep the long story short. . the whole volleyball comp was so fun and interesting. . .and den in the end we played against 3/12. . and we lost. . so we GOT a 4h placing . .


BUT NVM.. .

WE ARE ALREADY CHAMPIONS !! CUZ THIS VOLLEYBALL COMP HELPED US TO BOND and unite. .

SO WE ARE THE REAL CHAMPIONS.. .BECAUSE IT ONLY EARNED US A 4TH PLACING BUT FRIENDSHIPS AND BONDS.:)

AND PLUS WE WONT HE MOST PRIZES . .THE BEST SUPPORTING AND FAIR CLASS. .4TH PLACING AND BEST TEAM MANAGER (YEAHS.. THANKS ..JESSIE. . YOU RAWK. . PROVIDING US WITH BANANAS AND ALL ..:).. .YEAH..BABE.. .:))

Ok..I'M OFFICIALLY CRAZY..HAH

yeps..found really nice pics of yoon eun hye. .

she looks really elegant and classy in this pic. .:)

aHHH..korean gals are JUST plain cute. . .:)..kawaii i.

kkaaes.. . as usual the blogger image thing is taking verii slow

signing off///__at myhse_feeling really TIRED after the volleyball match..

daily devotion of the day



18th Oct
Isaiah 49: “the servant of the lord” and “restoration of Israel”

“He said to me, “you are my servant, Israel, in whom I display my splendor.” But I said, “I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and in nothing. Yet what is due me is in the lord’s hand, and my reward is with my God.” sometimes, we feel that there is no meaning to life, that life to us is meaningless. We don’t create much significant difference to the world, our existence is purely useless. We often label ourselves as good-for-nothings, people that create much trouble and do nothing to help make the world a better place. in life, whenever I obeyed the lord in certain areas in life, for example getting a rid of a particular habit and walking right of the lord, sometimes even listening to his commands and doing it by calling a non-Christian friend to build relationship and perhaps share the gospel. BUT, most of the times, whenever I accomplished what he asked, there’s always no BIG significant change happening, sometimes things even happen in the opposite way. We get frustrated, we get angry, we don’t know what is going. I doubt that I’m actually obeying what the lord has called me to do, maybe I’m just hearing things in my head, or maybe I heard the instructions of the lord wrongly.

But the lord wants to reaffirm you that what you have been doing is pleasing to the lord, he is happy that the fact that we obeys him and accomplished what he commanded us to do. Yet, however, the things that you do take time to create its effect and impact on others, it’s not an immediate effect and thus needs time to evolve and take place. Thus, do not be upset and discouraged, for the lord has seen what you have done and is pleased with it. He will eventually reward you with blessings that will flow through your descendants. Well, other times, when you did obey the lord, nothing takes place, even it becomes worse, this could be the fact that the time is not ripe, and that God wants to mould you and transform your character, or it could be a test of the lord to see if you ‘re a faithful servant of the lord.

“yes, captives will be taken from warriors, and plunder retrieved from the fierce; I will contend with those who contend with you, and your children I will save. I will make your oppressors eat their own flesh, and they will be drunk on their own blood, as with wine.

“That all mankind will know that I, the lord, am your savior, your redeemer, the mighty one of Jacob.”














Yes, indeed the lord will save us from all our enemies, they will not dare to attack us, because the lord is with us. He leads us to victory, therefore we can emerged as strong victors! The enemies will be gotten rid of, and the lord will be known to all for he has saved us and bring us out of misery and despair. HOo-ray.the lord has rescued us from all fears and troubles, he reigns and lives.





yeahs: //3 cheers for GOD

yip yip hooray!!

yip yip hooray!!

yip yip hooray!!

:)

devotion of the day



17th oct
Isaiah 48 : “stubborn Israel”

The Israelites were as usual, very stubborn people whose “sinews of neck were iron, your forehead was bronze.” They refused to listen to the lord, and relied heavily on their so-called idols. The israelities even gave the highest glory and praise to their idols, saying that they deserve all praise and declaring that “my idols did them; my wooden image and metal god ordained them.” But the truth is, all glory belongs to the lord who has done everything for Israel, but the israelities are not yet awakened, their hearts are still as hard as a metal stone. They haven’t realized the big mistakes they have commited. They are still living in self-denial, in a dream that seems so beautiful that they refused to wake up. They are living in the devil’s traps of deception, they have not been called back into reality to know and understand the truth of the lord.

“From now on I will tell you of new things, of hidden things unknown to you. They are created now, and not long ago; you have not heard of them before today.” This sentence vaguely reminds me of the eoys china programme briefing 2dae at LT2, *(wahaha..i even rembr the location ///diao).. Catherine was talking something about living in three different worlds, whether we want a world that we are in total control, absolute control of. We can do things whatever we want, and there are no restrictions whatsoever, nobody can stop you from doing what you like. You can chase after your dreams and do what you really like. The 2nd world is whereby you live in a very square and fixed world, everything is already very well-planned for you. it’s like walking along a corridor, you just have to open the rooms lined up along these corridors and live you life that has already been planned. You will not be able to predict the future, but you somehow or rather know what its going to be like, however, you are unable to change the future we have no power to change the future. We are powerless and weak; we can only wait for the future to arrive. The 3rd world is a confusing world, you live in a timeless world where good chances and opportunities await you. you are able to enjoy all the benefits and privileges of the opportunities that fall your way, you will be able to see your vision clearly, and thus can carefully plan and map up the next step of life. the 3rd world is a world full of surprises and mystery, there’s always something going on.

Actually, for me, I want a bit of everything from each world, I want to have a little control in my life. because I know that the lord has total and absolute control over my life, so I am at ease and thus feels safe and secure for my future and destiny lies in the hands of my creator and maker. I have control over my life, because I know that the lord is in full control of my life. J but I don’t want to have too much control over my life that I start making decisions for myself, and doing things that I LIKE<> I want to do things that God likes and God wants, things that will help fulfill my personal dream and destiny, things that will help build God’s kingdom. I do not want to be a selfish git who only cares about satisfying my own pleasures doing things my own way. I want to be of much contribution to the great commission and to be a star and blessing to others. I also want my life to be well—planned, but I don’t want it to be so well-planned that I ended up knowing my whole entire future. Cuz in that way, I won’t be enjoying my life anymore. It will not be full of surprises. I want God to tell me of new things, new stuffs, new fun prophesies so that I’m able to enjoy life to the fullest. i want him to reveal deep unknown secrets not known to anyone at all, to be called to do the God’s work, and once you achieved it, it feels so great. I feels so accomplished to be called the daughter of the light, serving him whole-heartedly.

AND, obviously I also want to live in the 3rd world, where they are so many opportunities and chances for me to enjoy. The visions shows to us will let have a chance to carefully planned our lives so that we enjoy life to the fullest, to the MAX>

YEAHS..AND IN THE 3RD WORLD, God will bless us with so many blessings and opportunities. We can shine for God. yeah..let’s share our blessings.!

yeah..yeah!!


Charis is happy 2dae!!


she finally passed her HIST..OK..yarla..i din't get my 80 for hist.. .i mean it's rather impossible considering that only one person in our class got >80. . .yupp p ..so i should be happy and content with my results. . .haha


i got 68..yeah..for hist>>>this is my 1st tym this yr getting a b3 for hist. . .hoooray. . .charis..万岁..charis..万岁!!..haha..watch too much goong liaos. . .

yeps..so exciting . . 2mr qiu is lending me gong. . .:)..lalala. . i 've finally can watch goong at a faster speed. . .(like a bullet-train)..not like channel U..like a slow-moving tortoise. . .DIAO


i realised after watching goong. . i've becoming verii lame. . .


haha.. . .there was this part where caijing kept doing the twist sign. . so that the reporters can take her pic. .and she was veriyy cute. . .den SHIN put his arms around her. . saying this is very 幼稚. . .cuz they actually had this eng translation . . where the eng subtitles goes "this is very lame" . . .and it was verii farnie. . .diao lo///


hahas. . i was laughing when chen si told me. . .den we keep doing the act cute twist pose. . .


it was pretty dumb. . .:0


OHH..i forgot to mention my IH results. .. .i got a 64. . amazing rite,.?..i was thinking that i failed. . .and i was so shocked when i saw my paper that i nearly fainted.. it was so amusing cuz i tot i wrote crap .. . .and then i got a 17/25 for the 3rd quest. . .hahas.. 1st tym in this yr again that i got so high for an IH essay


yeahs..charis you are a record-breaker. . .i realised i broke so many records during the exam. . .like for hist and ih.. .i have never scored so high this yr b4.. . and likewise for bio ..chem and math. . i have never scored that low b4. ..hais


OH..and i realised i have to take the math supplemtary exam. . .haiyo. . .felt so depressed all of a sudden. . why do i have to remind myself that i failed my math.. . haishais. .*signs**




OK LO. . .so there was this china briefing in the afternoon 2dae. . and they were talking about this interesting 创意课程that sounds verii fun.

they will bring us to sight-see and play games. .sounds cool >>>i seriously can't wait fer the china trip . ..:)..yeahs..and i went to jiaoda website and saw what our seniors did last yr when they went to jiaoda..they actually had shooting lessons. . .i tink CYN thia will be interested.ahah

and they paint those really nice masks,. . .aHHH>. i wanna fly there immediately . .and i heard that there's lotsa good stuff shopping in CHINA> . .


BUT obviously if you think about it. . i'd rather go to KOREA instead. . and find my jang nara. .haha

and for those peeps who doesn't know who jang nara look like..

here's a pic of her:









isn't she cute!


kkaes. la..let me do a brief introduction of her. .


this cute pretty babe is a korean singer who acted in 红豆女之恋 and 开朗少女成功记...and i'm hoping to catch her刁蛮公主..but im currently broke..no $ to buy the VCD..hais


and they actually intially asked her to act in goong. . but obviously . .she has a fully schedule and is fully-booked. so wel l.. they asked li en hui instead. . yupp,..but i must say//li en hui is equally cute LA>

so on par jang nara on par with li en hui,,



hooray to all the cutie pies. .



great la,..2mr is the interclass-volleybal comp. . .haiyo..i'm verii scared i can't play LEH..knowing very well that i'm going to screw up the game. . .


haha


shall go and get my beauty sleep. . so 2mr i will have enough energy to play a good game. .YEA


signing off///_10.38_at my hse..trying to learn to sing perhaps love. :). . in korean. .it's hard xia. .

found really GOOD pics for my new blog skin..


presenting to yOu the JApanese curry. .


except this looks much betta than the food sold at out canteen. .haha ..


it looks NICE rite. . .sopHH..haha..you neo wad to do .. JUST use your perfect adobe skills. :)


AHH..it's taking reall slow for the next image to come UP>>>>
so slow xia.. how cum blogspot so slow..like tortoise leh.. turtle.. :(

aiyah..dont' care liaos..i'm not waiting fer the blogger post image . . .it's taking a long long tym.


shall go and hibernate zzzz!

devotion of the day

16th oct
Isaiah 47: “ the fall of Babylon ”

“The virgin daughter of Babylon, sit on the ground without a throne, daughter of Babylonians. No more will you be called delicate and tender.” Babylon will soon fall down, as disasters and calamities fall upon them. Because they have trusted the evil one, their “nakedness will be exposed and your shame uncovered.”

God says that they have relied on spells and sorceries to fight for power, so that they will continue forever—the eternal queen. But the lord says not anymore, because he has caused disasters and calamities to fall upon them, so that no matter how much they struggle, how much they retaliate, that they will not be able to defend themselves from the wrath of the lord.

The lord has been angry with the Israelites, and has handed them into the hands of the daughter of Babylon, however she has showed them no mercy. Even on the aged and needy, you laid a very heavy yoke on them, disabling and preventing them from enjoying their lives. These people lived in constant terror and suffering. God is angry as the queen did not do what he had ordered her to do.

“You have trusted in your wickedness and have said NO ONE SEES ME.” “your wisdom and knowledge has mislead you when you say to yourself ‘I am, and there is none besides you.” the queen of Babylon thought that the only way to survive is to use scheme and plots to achieve what she wanted. She used very extreme wicked means, she looked for sorceries and relied on all the potent spells, the astrologers for the study of the stars and future and the fortune-tellers to help her with the management of the whole nation. BUT, she knew, this was not the right way to get what she wants, she has disobeyed the lord and the lord is very displeased with her.

I am forcibly reminded of the show that I’ve just watched—goong. .haha..MY BLOGSKIN..kkaes..anyways. . .

When I read this passage, it reminded me of the Politics in the palace, where 2 brothers are fighting over the heir to the throne. Countess (what’s her name.. xi mi tai chi.?) and prince yi cheng jun wanted to regain their status in the palace and wanted to get back what they have lost originally, they used many underhand methods and means to achieve what they wanted. YES, they were fighting for a right reason, it can be justified for their actions, but is what they are doing right.?..is it against their conscience, what they are fighting for, the fame, the status or merely because they did not want to be despised and look down because they have LOST all they have initially had.

But what is REAL in the show is that, in life, we’re often like the countess and LI YUL.. .OK..i have to admit even thO he’s super shUAI..what he’s doing in the show is SO NOT right. . .kkaes. .we often neglect the shaking conscience that we are doing the wrong thing, we try to give us various excuses and tries to justify ourselves with the sinful and not-so-right things that we do.

BUT that’s totally not right at ALL>

And we know that. . .but its obviously human nature for people to do the way they think its right. . .



BUT IT”S NOT right.. .we’ve gotta do the GODly way..the way God wants us to DO!


Let’s walk right with the lord and give up on all OWN Pleasures and satisfaction. Die to your self and take up your cross daily.

depressed


SAD


ARGH!!!!!


2dae is a bad bad dae.. .shouldn't have gone back to school 2dae!!,. . i din't want to get back my math, chem, and bio results at ALL..it's just plain depressing, , ,i know. . i can never be promoted to sec 3..and i DON"T WANT..DON'T WANT...DON'T WANT. . to transfer to O'levels. . .


i mean i expected my math to score very very low..seeing that i left many answers BLANK> BUT MY bio..?????..how cum it's so terrible.. .how come i flunk that exam.. its 40% lehs.s.....and i seriously don't want to visit ST again.. . .argh..argh, , ,i don't want to discuss with her on how to tranfer to o'level track...

even tho i seriously dislike and am against the school's IP system . .but it doesn't mean that i prefer the o'level track even MORE> . . .


and i can't survive IN IP>>i tink i'll die greater in o'level track..someone save me..!


i 'm really praying hard and crossing my fingers tight that my HiST and IH paper will be better. .IF i can get an 80 for hist and IH> . .i will be SUPER happy, ,. .and gladly jump off the clocktower. . .haha..but obviously it seems impossible. . .


people like yanne will find it extremely chicken-feet. .but ppl like me will find that passing my hist exam is as hard as passing my PE test. .


o.. OK..how lehs. . .i really don't want to transfer. . .to O"level. track..i'd rather tranfer school. ..but my dad says CANNOT. . .why..why




THIS WORLD IS SO UNFAIR.. . .


IT REALLY. IS



I DUN'T WANT. TO GO O'LEVEL TRACK



I'VE BECOMING VERII WHINY.. .AFTER I FOUND OUT THAT MY AVERAGE FER EOYS IS GG TO BE VERII LOW. . .HOW..?


this is so saddening LO..

i have No mood to go to shanghai . .



OH dear.. . we haven't rehearse our dance. . and performance yet. .



hEE.. .so many things left undone..

i realised i have many many things to DO

1: tidy up my messy room. .after all the studying during eoys period.. .my room is officially DIRTY..and looking much like a pigsty. . i have all my BIO stuff on the table. . .(which shows that i study verii hard fer BIO>.how can i do badly fer it. . .how can i flunk IT????)

2. go fer a shopping spree..i'm planning to BUY more long-sleeved shirts and jeans. . fer my shanghai TRIp..and also beanies.. .so i can wear different beanies everydae. .:).. .

hahas.. i'm even considering buying hEEL.s. .HIGH.heels. .but i doubt can walk in IT. . i can't even balance myself in the bus in my flat platforms. . how can i even stand properly IN heels. .

but it's still fun wearing heels.. .for short ppl like me. . .it CAN make me feel tall in HEELS>yEAHS

3. watch finish the whole of PRIncess hours. . i'm dying to watch finish PRINCESS hours. . but i'm like BROKE.. .i can 't afford the 24.90 princess hours. . .HMM. .QIU.. u neo what to do HORS>. .lend ME>. haha.

and at the rate channel U is showing princess hours. . it'll be 1 year later b4 they finish airing the show. . it's so sad. .everytym there's a commercial . . and i get really pissed off . .like they always show the commercial at the exciting moments.

haha

4. continue my open cell __i wanna continue,. ,. .but it seems that the enthusiasm level has gone down . .and it's really difficult to meet up with hannie and the 3/8 peeps. . .it's difficult . .BUT i must persevere. .

yeahyeah..the school will be saved fer GOD

5. practise harder fer math & chem. . .i don't wann to disappoint mrs wong and my chem tuition teacher. . .they really helped me a lot in my studies this yR.. . i must jia yous,. .and work hard fer them . . .yeahs. .so NXT year. .hopefully. .and BY sum magical luck .. .when NAH is not teaching us. . i shall get an A1 for chem and math. . .


yeps.. .



haha.. ci qiong liaos. . .running out of things to say lEHs./


oHHHH./.and for those who haven't watch GOONG..go and watch./ . .haven't you seen my beautiful blogskin to neo how wonderful that show IS>>>.go and watch!!



signing off__16thoct_10.12_MY HSE . .in foul mood seeing that i have to transfer to o'levels. .hais.. .i'll miss 309. . .

15th oct

Matthew 25 : 1 – 13 / rev Melvyn mak / be alert ! –what if there is no tomorrow ?

We need to know what to do in the worst-case scenario. We need a worst-case survival GUIDEBOOK--- from the Lord.

How can we survive the 2nd coming?

Ø Break the spirit of presumption and procrastination

Sin of presumption:
We are often like the 5 foolish virgins in the story of Matthew 25, we often presume that the bridegroom will open the door for us to join the wedding banquet. We PRESUME that the lord is a kind, merciful, and loving lord who will eventually open the door during the 2nd coming, to allow us to enter into the kingdom of heaven. We often take the grace of GOD for granted, thinking that the lord will open his hands wide open to embrace us during the 2nd coming, the 2nd coming of the lord is when the lord would come to judge, thus, the door will be shut tightly. Only those who have come prepared, and have their “extra oil jugs” with them, will be able to light their lamps. The lamps represent their spiritual walk with the lord, as the lamps are fully lit, the bridegroom would be able to recognize them and welcome them to the wedding banquet. Those foolish virgins presumes that they can share the oil with the wise virgins, however, they forgotten that the oil cannot be shared as it is only enough for the wise virgins. Likewise, everyone has a different relationship with the lord; we can’t share our spiritual walk with others. We cannot be saved because our friends are saved. We alone have to be making a choice to be saved. We want to draw closer to the lord and each has to build an intimate relationship with the lord.

The doors of grace are widely open now, would you accept the invitation of God to enter into the gates of heaven. Do not wait until the gates of heaven has been closed during the 2nd coming, you will regret that you have never made the decision.

Sin of procrastination:
Don’t procrastinate.. ..don’t delay! We keep procrastinating, thinking that there is always time for us to serve the lord. Yupp..like for me.. I’ll keep procrastinate.. .about dance. . .i know that God has always valled me back to join the dance team..but there are always reasons that prevent me from joining dance. . .and I keep delaying and procrastinating..thinking there’s always time left, reassuring myself that once studies is back on track.. I’ll serve the lord. BUT..now I know that there is no time left!..i want to live my life like there’s no tomorrow. I want to be called the daughter of light, and continue to shine for God and bless others that are around me. The end is near, it is right at the door, there is no more time left. As the lord says “the generation will not pass away until the fig tree is alive.” There has been an acceleration of disasters and unrest during this ten years, it is twice more that what has happened in the past 100 years. We know that the end is near, and we have to stop procrastinating and do what the lord has told us to do. We will not be like the foolish servant who slacks off and plays around when his master is out. For when the master returns w/o at an hour the servant is unaware of, the servant will be driven out of the house and will join the hypocrites where they will weep and gnash their teeth. In other words, they will be drove to hell.

Ø Build the spirit of perseverance

Let us persevere and finish the job that the lord has given each and everyone of us. We will not be the Israelites who did not finish their jobs when they did not destroyed their enemies completely, and took back many of the enemies’ treasures as they were smitten and greedy over their possessions and their wealthy fortune. The oil that the virgins each carry is the Holy Spirit, we’ve got to always be filled with the Holy Spirit. Everyday, let’s renew ourselves with the Holy Spirit and humble ourselves in the foot of cross, getting a new revelation of the cross. Let us constantly be reminded of the love of God as he sent his only begotten son, Jesus Christ to die for his sins.

Ø Be sure of God’s presence in you

Isn’t it frightening/scary/terrifying/alarming when the day of the 2nd coming, and the lord says he doesn’t KNOW YOU. I would be extremely frightened and afraid, if God says he don’t know me and doesn’t let me pass through the gates of heaven, it means that I cannot be called daughters and sons of the living God. everyone must have a personal relationship with the lord, let’s draw closer to the lord and realign our lives and hearts to God’s will.


LET’S long for his coming, and desire that he will come and bring us back!

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