high

super high man..

2dae was aunna's bd party..project forA is ready in action.. . .

the 1st thing we did was to change into our retro outfit. .:)..yeps..now look ready to dance and party!!

and den wendy brought the curlers..so yuan ting the expert was helping us PERM/CURL our hair. .and we looked reall mature. . and i finally realised that i LOOKed nice in permed HAIR.. YES..for once i 'm actually quite satisfied with my hair.:)..i'm reconsidering cutting my hair. .mayb i shall leave it long and go perm IT..HMM..but skool don't allow LEH..sad

hahas..den we took really diao pics. .acting cute and ALl.. ...posing in front of the mirror lyke xiao za bOh..and we ended up spending the whole morning making ourselves look nice and presentable.. I DID my NAIls. .yeah.. .wendy helped my do the white coating manicure..cuz i was simply hopeless with doing manicure. . .hah..and den i did the cowprint style. .drawing black cow dots.. on my nails. .AND IT ACTUALLY LOOKS QUITE NICE..:). .guess i wasn't too hopeless with manicure after all. . .





**^me and x-lyn playing with the caM..!

devotion of the day

28th oct
Isaiah 59 : “sin, confession and redemption”

“Surely the arm of the lord is not too short to save, nor his ear too dull to hear. But your inequities have separated you from your God.” Sometimes, we feel that the lord is so far away from us, and that he’s not doing anything to save us from all our problems and difficulties in life. We feel that perhaps we are too insignificant in the eyes of the lord and that he probably did not hear our prayer requests to him. BUT, the fact is..God listens!!..he listens to every little prayer that we make cuz each and everyone of us is made special in God’s sight. So then, why are we separated from God, why is there a visible barrier between us and God. that’s because we have sins in our lives that we are unable to surrender you to the lord, our lives are not a living sacrifice unto the lord. We are simply so different from the lord, God is so high up, holy and sacred, while we have too much inequities and sins in our lives. God’s sets a very high standard and scale for all his sons and daughters, he wants them to live their lives in truth, love and peace, following his word daily, so that we can be a living testimony to our friends and family. When God is faraway from us, we feel very lost and scared, afraid that we’ll soon lose the connection between us and him. There was a period of time, when I felt so distant from God, I felt so afraid and frightened, it’s like the kinda feeling you get when a young kid gets lost from his/her parent in an amusement park. You suddenly feel very LOST, there’s no longer joy in your heart, but fear and depression, it’s like your soul being sucked out. There was no purpose or goal in life, and everything seemed very hopeless. I felt very lethargic and tired the whole day, and at night I couldn’t sleep at all. Negative and bad thoughts filled my whole mind, and I couldn’t concentrate in whatever I was doing throughout the whole day.

I did not know what was going on and kept trying to pray and seek the lord, asking for a solution to get out of this crazy and mad situation. After a few days, I realized that there was actually too much sin and dirt in my life, and that God also wanted a major breakthrough in my life cuz I was facing many problems in that period of time, and didn’t know how to proceed on in life. God told me that I’ve gotta do something about my life and that my heart needs to do some major “washing” and “rinsing”. I knew that there were many sins in my life that were not severely dealt with yet, so after hearing what the lord had to say. I tried really hard to do what the lord has said, and to get rid and eliminate of all the bad influences in my life and to make sure that my life is acceptable and pleasing unto the lord.

The sins in your life can easily create a barrier between you and the lord. LIVE your life the way God wants and live everyday as if there’s no 2mr. live 2mr like there’s no 2mr..(sounds cheem?..haha). .

Yeps.yeps.therefore, a healthy spiritual relationship is essential in our lives, so that there’s always joy and happiness our lives.

farewell mdm mak..

再见mdm mak


ouveau mdm mak..

must miss us kk.?

yeps..2dae was the last DAE of skool. . so HAPPY..after this week..i'm gg to shanghai SOON..yeps..so excited. . .this few daes.. i have been so busy that i did not have tym to pck my shanghai bag.. so i tink i must start packing my bag LIAOS> . .

i've realised this few daes..i keep procastinating.. lYKE for example. .i'm supposed to start on Aunna's prezzie last wk. . and yT's bd prezzie last last wk. . .argh.. .and now..i'm not even half-way thru Yt's prezzie. .AND>.yt's burfdae is already long gone over. .last week. . so i'm supposed to give her an overdue prezzie.?..oH.GOSH..wad's happening to me.?..last tym i wasn't lyke that. . i was more organized task-oriented..now. EVEN THO it's in the hols. . but i feel that there's so much stuff to do and i don't have a proper schedule. .


hah..and i actually wanted to finish goong b4 i go to shanghai but i guess i couldn't. .cuz i haven't even finish watching the 3rd disc.. .the PART WHEN chae kyung fainted. . it was so interesting to see how shin was acting so cool abt it even tho he really cared fer her. .haha..i was laughing when i see both of them squabbling. .

yeps..anw.. 2dae's skool was OK. . .in the morning we had spring-cleaning. .so we clearing our dear 309 classroom which was cluttered with loads and loads of rubbish. . and there were many temasek polytechnic magazines and weird random newsletters and huge piles of papers. . so i decided to bring home a huge stack of TP newsletters fer my beloved granny to fold into table mats. .yeps..i'm a filial granddaughter..:)..haha..

and it was heavy..mind you. .and the worst thing was it was raining very heavily.. and i was struggling to carry the heavy stack and my umbrella.. and i looked really pathetic..



and the worst thing of all..was that my granny said that 32 copies of the newsletter was not enough to fold her table mats. .


and i was quite SAD..cuz i "sacrificed" a lot for the newsletters..so as to keep them dry..i had to use my body and skool bag to shelter the "precious" newsletters from getting wet. .


sebb actually bought class breakfast fer US>.so touched.. .:).. .i changed my impression of her. . dere and den after. .and nxt yr she's not teaching us. . i really hope she can remain our form teacher.. even tho along the way..309 din't really accept her as a REAL and TRUE form teacher. .but's she still veryy nice and encouraging. .always trying to knwo us as a class. .at least she put in effort in talking to us and interacting with us. .:)


and the best of all..was mdm mak's farewell party.. YEAH. .mdm mak is leaving liaos.. .it's quite sad tis year. .cuz many ppl are leaving me .. lyke my maid. .she;'s gg bk to phillipines cuz she finished her contract. .and she wanns to go bk to settle down with her husband..they just got married last year..newly-weds..hah..but i can't bear to her go.. even tho i dislike her sumtyms.. but BI(4) JING(4) she stayed with us at least 7 years. . and i know i'm gg to MISS her.. .


so i was tinkng of her getting her smthing nice.. lyke a dress or smthign..b4 she leaves.. :)



yES>.and jac, jia min and mel Goh sang reall well during the mdm mak's farewell perf. .it was chao(1) good. . .i felt so inferior man. . lyke i'm also a choruster. .BUT i can't sing. . .they sang close to you and ye lai xiang. . and they blended really WELL.. :)). .ant was recording their singing...cuz it was really GOOD.... ..lyke their singing can really melt hearts.. .
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if the whole choir..is filled with jiamins.jacs..and melgohs.. i tink we choir nxt yr surely get gold with honours. .But..with the current hopeless situation. .with losta scolding frm ms lim. .and if the juniors just refuse to open their mouths and sing. . then well .. i tink we 'll do very badly fer nxt yr's SYF..perhaps even a bronze. .


hais..tat's depressing !


anw..at night..i went to x-lyn's hse to buy 2nd-hand clothes frm her. . OH..that reminds me. .!!.. DOES ANYONE WANT TO BUY 2ND-HAND CLOTHES FROM ME.? ..I 'M TRYING TO CLEAR MY WARDROBE. . !!


yeps.. .cuz lyke i realize i have too many un-worn clothes that is verii diff to pei(4),..and sum of them are gettin too small..which shows..i'm gg fatter.. .sighs.

devotion of the day



26th oct
Isaiah 57 : “God’s accusation against the wicked” “ comfort for the contrite”

“The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from the evil.” Before the 2nd coming of Christ, there’ll come a tym of rapture period, where the Christians and those are followers of God will be brought up to join the Lord, whereas the rest of mankind will be left behind. Only true believers and followers of Christ will be granted this special privilege to join the lord in the heavenly realm. These People, who are serious in doing the lord’s work and understand the vision and the dreams of the lord, will be taken up so that they will be spared from the suffering agony that the others will have to suffer. After the rapture period, it will be followed by the tribulation period, where the antichrist will rule over the earth for 7 years (*note: it’s GOD’s 7 long years..not literally 7 years..thus it may interpreted as 7 long decades/centuries) during this tribulation period, the beast will reign and his number is 666 (that is why the devil’s no is 6).“The beast forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive the mark on his right hand or on his forehead, so that no one could buy or sell unless he had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of his name.” revelation 13:17. There will come a time, when everyone would have a mark to symbolize that he or she belongs to the beast.

In fact, this is happening already. Researchers have found out that some forms of chips have been implanted into the bodies and brains of human beings, and they used that tiny little small chip to purchase goods. You may say it’s convenient, in fact, it’s a huge scientific achievement, BUT, if you think about it, you will know that the implantation of chips is a form of beast. There will come a time, when the chips will start to replace cash, money and even credit cards. Everyone will start to own it, just like the handphone craze in the recent years, and if you don’t possess the chip, you’re unable to buy or sell things, because the chip itself is of value. So, will you continue to trust the lord and stay firm in your faith, or will you crumble and succumb to temptation in order to survive? The love of most will grow cold during this period of time, but the spread of gospel will become more rampant and the no. of missionaries and believers of God will gradually increase and they will continue to spread the love of God to all non-believers. After the gospel has been preached to the end of the world, the lord will come, and this is known as the 2nd coming, when the lord comes to judge and to build his kingdom of God.

“There is no peace”. says my God, “for the wicked.” The beast and the antichrist followers will create more unrest and misery to the people. Peace and love no longer exist in the world, as people start to fall away from the lord and to support the antichrist. Therefore, let’s stay strong~ in the face of tribulation period and the EVIL beast.

devotion of the day



25th oct
Isaiah 56 : “salvation for others”

“Maintain justice and do what is right, for my salvation is close at hand and my righteousness will soon be revealed.” During this modern world of unrest and distress, the most important thing would be to maintain justice and to do what is right. Do what is holy and righteousness, and pleasing to the lord. For salvation is here, and it is made available to everyone, so whoever who needs it can draw close to the lord and accept his invitation. The righteousness and holiness of the lord is what makes the lord pure and sacred, we need to be cleansed by the blood of Jesus Christ before we can build an intimate relationship with the lord.

“To the eunuchs who keep my Sabbaths, who choose what pleases me and hold fast to my covenant—I will give them an everlasting name that will not be cut off. And foreigners who bind themselves to the lord who serve him, I will bring to my holy mountain and give them joy in my house of prayer.” God will not neglect all the foreigners and those that have been oppressed. Those people who face persecution in their families and schools, the lord will not forsake them. But as he sees them staying strong in the faith and drawing nearer to the lord, he rewards them with large amounts of blessings and says that he is pleased and happy with their performance. And those who are in the minority groups who face serious oppression and persecution from their families and friends, WHEN they stay firm in their faith, not wavering in their spiritual path, the lord will eventually grant them an everlasting name where they will not be cut off from the kingdom of God. These people are those who persevered and press through till the end, never giving up even till the last minute. They are warriors of the light who are determined to win this battle; they have already claimed the victory of this battle. The oppressed, the desolate, the sick, the needy, the destitute, the lord will not despise. In fact, he will shower them with more blessings and opportunities. All these people just need to ask from the lord and he will give it to them.

“Come!” each one cries, “let me get wine! Let us drink our fill of beer! And 2mr will be like today, or even far better.” This group of people does not know that the 2nd coming is near, and that they still have the time to play and drink around. They are still enjoying life the way they think it should be, and that the 2nd coming is still far, and that the great commission to them is not a big deal. They could not see the urgency of the spread of the gospel, as their eyes are closed and their spiritual ears unable to hear. They do not understand the seriousness of the situation, that soon the beast\(anti-chris) will reign and the tribulation period will soon come. We’re gotta stay firm in our spiritual walk and develop a strong relationship with the lord. Walk right in the lord, and dedicate your lives to the almighty God. Die to yourself everydae! Live life the way God wants.

YAYness. .


2dae feels like a LONG dae but a very enriching and fulfilling dae. . :)

1st. .i woke up reall early 2dae cuz i couldn't seriously couldn't sleep .:)..suffering from insomia nowadays..*sighs*

den..there was dance prac fer project FORa. . and i tot i was running late..cuz i left my hse at 10.50pm..when the dance prac starts at 11pm. . .so i was dashing all the way to TCT. .

and den i realised that i was NOT late..in fact i was one of the early birds. . there was only kelly and xiumin.(who always as usual is the earliest.. .i seriously dont' understand how she can always get on tym for all our meetings. ..)..and den kelly MA decided to reward us with gummy sweets for being early..*yeah*. .and then ants and mozzies started attacking her. . and she claims it's becuz she's veri sweeet. . hah..diao..

and we started singing sum camp song bout mozzies. .it was super cute. . i swear. only kelly can cum up with such diao song. . heh

den x-lyn.. yt..jazreel came for the dance prac..and just as we were officially gg to begin.. x-lyn realised that she din't bring the disc.(i want to hold your hand). . .and KELLY said that we had no choice but to go bk to get the disc. .

so we took a cab to x-lyn's hse.. and guess wad


kelly called us to ask us to cum bk. . .apparently..rach had that song in her hp..and thus,.they want us to rush bk..

so in the end ..we wasted a $4.20 cab ride. .

and x-lyn was quite upset. . cuz she spent 10 bucks on taxi-fare the entire dae..which was kinda unnecessary..as you could see the 10bucks can used for more useful stuff . .lyke shopping fer clothes and stuff. .

yeps..OH well,..nvm..x-lyn. .it's just 10 bucks.. you can earn it easily with your 50bucks weekly allowance.

YUPP..and in the end the dance prac was very successful..we finished the entire song liaos.. .we just need to refine our steps again. .and make sure that everyone's timing is perfect. :)

but the funny thing was that ..i kept laughing when xiumin and i pair up to do the shimmyshimmy thing.. (it's sum retro move when you;re gotta shake the oppo direction as ur partner does. )..and we've gotta stuck a flower in our mouth when we 're doing that..

and we used a pen during prac instead..

and it was very funny. .cuz the way we do the shimmyshimmy thing was veryy amusing..lyke it's very constipated or smthing. hah

and everytym i do that move..i've gotta remove the pen.cuz i'll end up laughing.. or else the pen just falls to the ground. . it's chao(1) amusing Lo.

den.. .there was this walking-to-the-side-looking-like-a-crab move. .and looked as if my shoulder was hyperventilating. .haha..whereas.. rach did it so naturally. .SEE..dancers will always be dancers. .it's an in-borne thing ..i guess.i'm just not talented with it ..lyke i trained so hard to do a split.. and till now..i can't do a 3/4 split.. it's just so depressing. .

den we went to vivo..it's crazy there.packed with ppl. .unable to breathe xia..lyke everywhere you turn .. there's a whole bunch of ppl. .and we were unable to eat our lunch..cuz long john's was full..mac's was full..yoshinoya was too ex.. and we had to go to hawker to eat in the end. .hah


diao LO..i tot vivo was supposed to be reall BIG..that it won't be crowded..but it ended up that ppl just loved to go to new places..that seems cool and diao. and everyone has to shop in a cramped..i've even see old ahma shopping in VALerie and topshop..SERIOUSLY

den,..me and x-lyn went to dhoby fer her sports carnival meeting. .and den x-lyn's phone was running out of battery.. so uhum..we had to use the powersource in the mrt.. and it was rather embarrasing. .cuz lyke we were sitting there and charging the phone. hah..

YAYness. .


2dae feels like a LONG dae but a very enriching and fulfilling dae. . :)

1st. .i woke up reall early 2dae cuz i couldn't seriously couldn't sleep .:)..suffering from insomia nowadays..*sighs*

den..there was dance prac fer project FORa. . and i tot i was running late..cuz i left my hse at 10.50pm..when the dance prac starts at 11pm. . .so i was dashing all the way to TCT. .

and den i realised that i was NOT late..in fact i was one of the early birds. . there was only kelly and xiumin.(who always as usual is the earliest.. .i seriously dont' understand how she can always get on tym for all our meetings. ..)..and den kelly MA decided to reward us with gummy sweets for being early..*yeah*. .and then ants and mozzies started attacking her. . and she claims it's becuz she's veri sweeet. . hah..diao..

and we started singing sum camp song bout mozzies. .it was super cute. . i swear. only kelly can cum up with such diao song. . heh

den x-lyn.. yt..jazreel came for the dance prac..and just as we were officially gg to begin.. x-lyn realised that she din't bring the disc.(i want to hold your hand). . .and KELLY said that we had no choice but to go bk to get the disc. .

so we took a cab to x-lyn's hse.. and guess wad


kelly called us to ask us to cum bk. . .apparently..rach had that song in her hp..and thus,.they want us to rush bk..

so in the end ..we wasted a $4.20 cab ride. .

and x-lyn was quite upset. . cuz she spent 10 bucks on taxi-fare the entire dae..which was kinda unnecessary..as you could see the 10bucks can used for more useful stuff . .lyke shopping fer clothes and stuff. .

yeps..OH well,..nvm..x-lyn. .it's just 10 bucks.. you can earn it easily with your 50bucks weekly allowance.

YUPP..and in the end the dance prac was very successful..we finished the entire song liaos.. .we just need to refine our steps again. .and make sure that everyone's timing is perfect. :)

but the funny thing was that ..i kept laughing when xiumin and i pair up to do the shimmyshimmy thing.. (it's sum retro move when you;re gotta shake the oppo direction as ur partner does. )..and we've gotta stuck a flower in our mouth when we 're doing that..

and we used a pen during prac instead..

and it was very funny. .cuz the way we do the shimmyshimmy thing was veryy amusing..lyke it's very constipated or smthing. hah

and everytym i do that move..i've gotta remove the pen.cuz i'll end up laughing.. or else the pen just falls to the ground. . it's chao(1) amusing Lo.

den.. .there was this walking-to-the-side-looking-like-a-crab move. .and looked as if my shoulder was hyperventilating. .haha..whereas.. rach did it so naturally. .SEE..dancers will always be dancers. .it's an in-borne thing ..i guess.i'm just not talented with it ..lyke i trained so hard to do a split.. and till now..i can't do a 3/4 split.. it's just so depressing. .

den we went to vivo..it's crazy there.packed with ppl. .unable to breathe xia..lyke everywhere you turn .. there's a whole bunch of ppl. .and we were unable to eat our lunch..cuz long john's was full..mac's was full..yoshinoya was too ex.. and we had to go to hawker to eat in the end. .hah


diao LO..i tot vivo was supposed to be reall BIG..that it won't be crowded..but it ended up that ppl just loved to go to new places..that seems cool and diao. and everyone has to shop in a cramped..i've even see old ahma shopping in VALerie and topshop..SERIOUSLY

den,..me and x-lyn went to dhoby fer her sports carnival meeting. .and den x-lyn's phone was running out of battery.. so uhum..we had to use the powersource in the mrt.. and it was rather embarrasing. .cuz lyke we were sitting there and charging the phone. hah..

24th oct 2006
Isaiah 55: “invitation to the thirsty”

“Why spend money on what is not bread, and you labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.” Do not spend on worldly things that are worthless and eats up your soul. Extravagance and lavishness becomes a sin when you become too obsessed and addicted over it. Do not spend on unnecessary things, things that of your flesh and not the spirit. These become your desires, and results in us prioritize our worldly pleasures NO 1, rather than that of the lord. Therefore, spend wisely, think before you buy, do not buy things for the pleasure of the body, as this does not satisfy the soul. Do not seek after things that do not last, for things in the earth will not last forever and ever, it is not permanent and long-lasting. But rather, follow after the word of God and walk right with the lord in your life.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the lord.” God’s thoughts are definitely not our thoughts, his thoughts are pure and holy, and thus he wants us to catch his heartbeat so that we know and understand the special and plan and purpose in our lives. We may not understand God’s doings and ways in our lives but we know that it is for the good of one’s dream and destiny, and God has a special way of doing things, performing miracles we cannot see. He is like a potter, molding our lives but the potter always works quietly, and during the process the clay has to be pressed and baked in the oven, before it can be wonderfully created into a beautiful masterpiece. The heat of the oven, however hot it may be, may help to strengthen the clay to be hard and sturdy, strong and firm. Thus, the clay can be painted into different colors, and decorated into different products, to be sold as decorative items that can bless others. We are like the clay, we are molded by God, as he plants obstacles and problems in our lives so that we learn how to overcome these major Problems in life, we learn to be strong and independent, and to place out trust in the lord. We are not afraid of the HEAT in our lives, for we know that the potter is at work in our lives and would eventually paint our character to be of good, kind, loving and caring, so that we the clay can be a blessing to others.

“So is my word that goes out from my mouth: it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire.” We will obey what the lord has commanded us to do. It will not remained unheard, and we will take action about it, going off to do what the lord has called us to do. We learn how to be brave and courageous, and getting out of our comfort zone to do things that are well beyond our ability, as we know that the lord has provided with the strength and might to accomplish those things that he has called us to do. The lord desires us to ASK and INVITE- non-christians to church and harvest events, in the hope for more salvations. He wants all people to know him, to accept as sovereign lord of their lives. His heartbeat for the people and the nations are very clear, he wants everyone and the whole world to know that he Is God, and for all to confess with their tongues that he is lord and who was and is to come. J

i just realised my last post was super SAd.. and depressing..so i shall post a more cheerful and happy POST..

yuP.. .2dae i din't neo we were supposed to go discovery centre.. until QIu came over and told me that the post-exam activity for that day was to go for some guided tour in discovery centre. . .and I TOT that was ONLY for pri school kids..


i mean the last tym i went there was when i was in pri school..pri6. . and i couldn't believe was planning such a lame trip fer us..


BUT..yeah,..in the end it was not that bad..it fact it was quite FUN..

QT.. and i spend the whole bus trip taking goong PHOTOS>.hah..and we did the chae-kyoung..pose. . act-cute. .:)

and obviously..we also did the 10 act-cute poses. . OH>.qiu can send me the video..it was so DIAO..and with crazy SUJU fans like ah QIU(i dun't care.. i shall call you ah qiu from now ON)..we OBVIOUSLY had to take the fighting and ahchacha(is that how you spell) pose. .


and i had to admit.. it was quite cute LA>. we the lamers association PPL..haf potential to be act-cute babes..YEAHS.. .

and even YANNE>.started posing in front of the camera. . QIU.must send me..den i send to tianye.. .den she can proclaim her LOVE to him..ahah. . nvm..IF you wann to be more professional..we can do a special video of YANNE confessing her LOVE to green fields,. ..and i can GLADlY do a love song. .and QIu can play the guitar,..OR she can dance sum slow SUJu dance..cool right.hah

*hope you dun't kill me for this*..:)

OH..and the coolest part of it was the sky-diving video..it was sum adrenaline rush video..and explains how sum ppl love to take risks..cuz they have lesser MNO..(sum chem stuff that i can't seem to recall)..then there was few scenes where they filmed the divers jumping from the plane.. and it was so cool . .:)

and me and sopHH..were too hunGRY.. .so we kept saying the mountains looked like ice- truflles and choco cream cake..

hah..and i tot that leornada davinci's parachute looks lyke dumpling. . .HEH..too hungry MAH

my stomach was growling thruout the whole show. .


but the screen is really COOL!..so BIG..and my and sopphh was wondering if we watch goong.. it'll b much cooler..luke shin and yul will be in full-size. .:)

and val wanted to watch horror films. .OH nO..dun't..i will be scared out of my skin. .

i dun't even dare to watch horror shows on a normal tv-screen. . how can i watch horror films ON a BIG BIG screen where everything is multiplied several times. .

yeps..and i tuitioned my little cousin --chinese 2dae. .
:)

she was very cute.. :)..she kept laughing..and couldn't concentrate half the tym.. .and i was lyke painting my nails. while teaching her chi compre.haha..not a very good tuition teacher. .heh..

but she seemed to improve a lot in her chi..lyke all those difficult and really cheem chi idioms..she seemed to understand and get the hang of it..

so i guess i'm not a very *shi(1) *bai(4) tuition teacher after all..

so those who have siblings in pri skool..who desperately wanns tuition can look fer me..


i charge very LOW>.15 bucks..1/1/2 hrs.s.:)

24th oct
Isaiah 54: “the future glory of zion”

“Sing o barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who was a husband.” Give thanks to the lord, for now the lord has given you the fruits of your labour, you see the harvest ripening and that more people, more friends, more loved ones coming to know the lord. Sometimes, we should not be upset to groan and moan over the our losses and failures in life, but rather we should thank God for the blessings he has given us. For ex, we may lose 1sheep along the way, but in the process gain 10 other sheep. Isn’t that a joy.?..a reward.?..

Therefore, do not look at your failures and what you have lost, but rather focused on what the lord has given you and make good full use of your skills and abilities to shine for God and bless others. “Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes” YES. Dream big for the LORD. Let’s expand our dream for the lord, so that as we fulfill our own personal dream, we can also do what the lord has told us to do.

“the lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit—a wide who married young, only to be rejected.” THIS strongly reminded me chae-kyoung in goong, who was not accustomed to the palace life, and who MARRIED YOUNG( at the age of 19) and only to be rejected by her friends, the society, her *supposedly* husband, she lost her freedom and she’s like a bird stuck in her cage. She no longer can live her life that she wants and has to conform to a future planned for her. She can no longer dream, she has to be stuck in the palace with the status of her being a crown princess, and beside her is the arrogant crown prince who likes her, but did not know how to express his love to her. BUT, there has to be a solution, and chae-kyoung decides to divorce with the crown prince to end her horrible fate and destiny. I think it’s the same with our spiritual walk with God, we thought we would enjoy the world outside, that we can do things the way we like, and would not have to care what the lord wants to do in our life. When we actually live a LIFE we want, we find out that life becomes worse than it’s supposed to be. We thought we would be in control of our lives once we decide to be masters of our life, but we realize that’s not the case, for lives are already in the hands of society and the devil. We are again bird caged up, legs binded up, not being able to fly in the sky freely. We turn back to God and seek forgiveness so that we can start anew again. With God leading us, we no longer feel lost anymore, we now are able to walk right with God and have a sense of direction to what we want to do in our lives. Most imptly, we are more confident of our own personal destiny and the heartbeat of God in each and every of our lives.