GHOEHFOIEHFOIH?

ITS BEEN 2 YEARS SINCE THIS BLOG HAS STAGNATE. AND AFTER READING PREVIOUS POSTS THAT I HAVE BEEN READING IN THE PAST, I CAN'T HELP BUT CRINGE AT WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN.

it does mean that I have grown over the years, i hope. funnily i can't imagine me writing some of the posts that i have wrote, or does it mean i have backtracked over the years. haha.

FREEZING JOKE

某女找尋配偶, 上網搜尋：


1.要帥
2.要有車搜尋
結果："象棋"


女不服 再搜：
1.要有很多錢
2.要有漂亮的房子搜尋
結果："銀行"


女不甘，繼續輸入條件：
1.要長的酷
2.要有安全感搜尋結果："鹹蛋超人"


再試
1.要長得帥
2.要有車
3.要有很多錢
4.要有漂亮的房子
5.要長的酷
6.要有安全感搜尋
結果："在銀行裡下象棋的鹹蛋超人"

HEARTS LEOPARD PREENTS :)

musings of currypoker

Talking can be therapeutic, the fastest way in the healing process.
I realized I like to discuss about my life, it helps to reflect on the things that i've gone through these 19 years, and how i can improve on in the future. Hopefully, by the time i've looked back in life, i would have gained much experiences from it and mature and grow up from all these falls.

A cell sister told me the other day that she was experiencing depression probs. I realized that it was only a years back ago that I experienced this craziest and the worst periods of my life. I could vividly recall the feelings of rejection, disturbing thoughts, and loss.

the life of abnomalacy, and you feel like your mind and your thoughts doesn't belong to you. negative thoughts flood your mind everyday, you're unable to escape from this deep black hole. It's only after a while that i realized that that was called a spiritual attack, something that the devil does to stray you away from God. And whenever such things ever try to happen again, i try to block out these thoughts. I realized it's easier to distract yourself from such thoughts than to counter-attack it. Never ever entertain these thoughts, you may just let yourself fall into the trap that the devil has planned.

It was only recently that these feelings come back to me, and I'm really afraid that I'm unable to overcome the depressive spirit in me. today, i went for a radio talkshow at 100.3, which was hosted by my dad's friend, kong huai. It's a sunday night show which he hosts every week, and discusses family societal issues with guest speakers occassionally. We were invited to be guest speakers to discuss about my mom's death, which was a really good way for me to release my thoughts and feelings regarding this topic. I realized I have never ever said so much about my mom's death before, then I realized again, that's because no one asked. Everyone is so afraid that they touch the nerve(wrong) spot when they try to approach you regarding this topic, when actually, we're rather open about it. In fact, I read it somewhere that family members who have lost their loved ones recently should try to find appropriate channels to release their stress and emotions through talking it out with their friends or relatives.

haha. okay. comp low batt xia. !






~i want a soothing beatifiul voice~

STYLE ROOKIE TAVI!

TAVI- the 14-year old style rookie who is the new-age satorialist, absolutely adores her down-to-earth straightforward style of writing, and her crazy, adventurous, amazing FASHION SENSE. .. i swear she's the only 14-year-old around that can pull off vintage that perfectly.:)

THUMBSUP!.. absolutely adores TAVI!!

L.O.V.E?

you know the feeling when you see someone, and your heart just starts to pump very fast. You want to keep looking and ogling at the person, but you're afraid that he will realize you're staring at him.. .and all the mixed feelings of wanting to know more about himm.. so on and so forth.. anws, the feelings did last for a period of time, but will END after the short period is UP. .LOL, then you will wonder why you ever ever like that person in the first place after all. .

That's how currypoker felt today. .she looked at the birthday boy today, and wondered to herself why did she ever ever ever had a crush on the birthday boy.. .and she only realized in recent years that this is termed as infatuation, which is a short-term disease that is curable if you do not let yourself fall too deep.

She hopes that this feeling will gradually stop this year when she is unable to see her eye-candy at alll this year. .><

GOODBYE INFATUATION, HELLO LOVE <3

LEOPARD + ZEBRA PREENTS = fashion hazard?

Remember her?
The girl who stole the limelight with her leopard and zebra preents, and her making a loud statement with her BOOMZ and SHINGZ.. .

Apparently she caused an uproar within the fashion community, and also stirred up a controversy that LEOPARD + ZEBRA PREENTS belong to that of the ahlian, and is doomed to be a fashion disaster. .

LIKE THIS!:



DISASTROUS! GHYFUYAFFYUIOIOJ!.
and when i decided to wear a prettaye chiffon leopard dress with black sequins, i was faced with objections from friend R and J.


R: ehhh. not very safe to wear ahh.. will end up looking like RIS LOW ah.
J: safer not to wear la, people may laugh ><

hopefully the satorialist will help to do justice for animal preents that was in last year's season. :)


and a feast for the eyes:

OOHLALA_BOOMZ:)




















































































































































































































































































































































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~BELLA SERA~

Bella sera <3--the night to remember

LOVE!

I 'm rather disturbed and upset by some things happened recently, and i'd rather affected by it. So, when i went for service today, I went with a heavy heart. ah, but then yuanting finally came!.haha, and that helped to lighten my mood.

the sermon today ministered to me a lott. . i could sense God's presence much stronger than usual today, and i knew that he was using Ps Mevlyn Mak's to speak to me.

SO here goes a summary of my sermon notes,:

How To Live The Most Excellent Life / 1 corinthians 13 / Rev Mevlyn Mak

The way of love is never easy. Faith, hope, and love, the greatest of all is Love. We need faith to trust in God. We need hope to find hope in the lord. But GOD himself is LOVE. <3

Love is the very essence of christianity.We all are taught to love one another, and it's a simple truth, yet hard to practise it. The fruits of the spirit are LOVE, JOY, PEACE, PATIENCE, KINDNESS, GOODNESS, FAITHFULNESS, GENTLESNESS, and SELF-CONTROL. Notice that Love is placed at the first of the fruits of the spirit, thus, this showing that love is the very key of the fruit of the Holy Spirit.

AGAPE= Love. Agape, the greek word of love means the deliberate choice to act in the interest of others. Sometimes, We find it hard to act in the interest of others in the expense of our interests/feelings. We lose our temper easily at the slightest disastifaction, and the anger driven by our bad temper will cause relationships to be easily affected and broken.

SO, how can we live the Most Excellent Life ?

1) priority and pe-eminence of love--realise the scheme of satan

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing." God made it clear in scripture that even if we have the greatest sacrificial zeal, power of communication to God and man, creativity and knowledge, and have not love, it is all reduced to nothing. And at times, even though we are obedient to God's calling or simply do the right things out of oblige and still lack love, it will still remain nothing and useless. Simply because the absence of LOVE.

The devil has switched our values upside-down and inside-out, so that our values are not in conformity with God's values.

MOTHER TERESA: "We cannot do great things alone, but can only do small things in love."

2)Picture and Practice Love--remove our self-centredness

1 corinthians 13:4-7 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

reflect//reflect//hhaaa. have you grown in love over these years?, OR has your heart become smaller?_have we fallen into the devil's trap and stopped the love from flowing out?__OR have we become so hurt and wounded by the things that's happening around us that we form a protective barrier that prevents us from loving others?

_It's not what you have done, but what you have become.

We, humans have always majored in the negatives(get even with others when they hurt us, or sometimes get silent before allowing to accumulate , get the person a piece of our mind, hurt them just like they hurt us)

LOVE is patient = great suffering

in layman terms, it means that a person to b wronged is giving 2nd chances to people who once hurt them. n

Here are the other definations for a clearer idea:

boastful = not listening to others ( we always do it subtly, always talking about our own experiences and feelings, not giving any space for others to share theirs too)

proud = arrogant (lack of respect)

easily angered = easily provoked

haha. i feel like i'm doing some paraphasing(POKES_reminds me of compre!.haha)



and just to clarifyyyy, love=always trusts= not gullible
Always trusting others doesn't necessarily means that you can be easily bullied or taken advantaged on, it just means offering a 2nd chance/opportunity to the person who has hurt you unconsciously/without knowing.

love holds no records of wrongs, we forgive others, tho most of the times we are unable to forget.

when you learn to love, you will naturally love God as a result. :D


often, when we are already wounded and hurt emotionally, we find that we are unable to love anymore. Therefore, we need the healing of our hearts, for God to do a transformation in our lives/hearts.

and the most common of it all=self centredness and self=righteousness. It becomes part of us, and all we think about is ourselves, we hold too high values of ourselves, and expect too much of others tho we are unable to meet the them ourselves.


_lord,change me from the inside out_



3) promise and power of LOVE/


Don't give up, love always perserveres and never fails.



<3 love always,

CURRYPOKER

UGH!

currypoker is sick.
(sniffs+sneezes+coughs)


arghhh. She wants to continue with her new year shopping but she can't go out cuz of a mountainload of hw that she has yet to complete. She hates integration to the core cuz she's unable to solve 9 out of 10 integration qns, be it by part or substitution.. She dislikes lun wen cuz she's unable to decide which topic and qn she wants to do. She gives up on GP because she thinks she will take forever to complete it.

and and Currypoker is feeling sad and depressed because:

1) She has already left Nuffnang and she misses the nuffies a lot
2) Her grandma's maid whom has been with her for 11 years has left for Phillipines for good
3) She's unable to find suitable new year clothes, with all her failed shopping trips at buying many monochrome tops. she needs to add some color in her new year clothes.
4) She saw a hand-made pink dress that she fell in love with it the moment she set her eyes on it, but sadly, is unable to afford it.
5) She's uber unhappy with her bowling friendlies perfomance, and wants to change her bowling style.

BUT,

currypoker decides to be optimistic and looks things at a more positive outlook.

She still has things to be grateful for:

1) She has accumulated much savings in her bank acc cuz of hol work pay_which can help to aid her financially in her new year shopping
2) She received a nice farewell card from a beloved nuffie-clara.
3) She just went to a wedding in the afternoon, and is still feeling lovey dovey from all the love.
4) SCHOOL is starting.(which is not really a good thing, maybe). Currypoker can see all her seveners and lamers.



_and she is still debating if she should get stockings and leggings online @20bucks(for both). should she. or should she not?